When I go to a convention, I'm so full of excitement and anticipation that I don't eat (or don't want to anyway!) While I'm there, I have a sense of purpose and am often too busy to eat or to worry about when my next meal will be. That adds a whole level of freedom to my life. Freedom from worrying about food, about my weight, about everything because I'm easily under my calorie goals and yet not feeling deprived.
That tends to persist for awhile after the convention. I love that! I just wish I knew exactly how to keep that persisting.
I do eventually miss the convention. That sense of joy and purpose fades away and I'm back to real life. I'm becoming more and more convinced that its not conventions that are an 'up' as much as my real life being a bit of a 'down'.
This leads to my quest to find out what I can do to 'chase' that high. But in a healthy way. My old job, while stressful, kept me busy all day. That's how I lost a lot of the weight, more so than the xanax, i think. Having a sense of purpose is key.
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